Marching Band: Best Fucking Thing Since Sliced Bread

Today, from the second I stayed after school till the second I was called to attention before I could leave I was reminded why I love marching band.

Despite the shitty practices, the BandDrama, the people who don't give a flying fuck, and a new director in the end the football games, the bus rides, and the competitions are definitely worth it.

These are things I love the most:

• The horrible loud obnoxious off-key singing done late at night
  
• The crazy gossip.
  
• Gay and band go hand in hand. [especially once in uniform]
  
• Touch a nut, not your neighbors!
• 10 Fingers!
• Inside Jokes
  
• Being surrounded by so many different personalities
• The band dance
• Mingling with the other band
• How putting on a uniform is like sprinkling pheromones on everybody
• Gay or straight you will be felt up by the same sex
  

Band is like having a other younger, more psychotic family. There are times where you want to murder each and every single person and times where you wouldn't know what you'd do without them. For every time I've ever wanted to quit band there are 5 other times that I wouldn't know what to do with myself if I did.

For you people who aren't in band, I feel sorry for you. You have no idea what you're missing out on. Maybe if you're in another club/sport/organization you might understand what I'm talking about but there's just some things that you're never experience unless you're a band geek.

xoxox, Jenn♥

BAND GEEKS FTW!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love

seems to elude me.

It's like trying to hold onto water. It just slips out of my grip.
[Actually it's never really been in my grip in the first place...]

And yeah I know I should "Enjoy being single" and whatnot but I don't think I could truly enjoy it until I've been in a relationship. Plus, it sucks big donkey balls when you can't talk to any of your friends because they all on the phone talking to their boyfriends.

It makes me feel like a total outcast. Oh I'm sure they meant nothing by it but it sucks. It's like the world is taunting me.

An AIM Conversation I had earlier today
Me: i feel lonely. =[ especially when they all are sitting on the phone talking to their b/fs
Me: im like in outcast city
Joe: yeah
Joe: welcome to the world of Joe.
Me: small world.
Joe: very
Joe: lonely and cold too
Me: is the sky black & does it rain 24/7?
Joe: yup

I'm currently located in Outcast City, Planet Joe where it's cold, dark, rainy and small. Yay.

I mean I just want a boyfriend but it can't just be any random guy. It's gotta be THE GUY. I have no idea who he is though but it'd be nice if he would show himself or maybe I could get a sign.

Yeah right, nothing good in this world ever comes easy.

xoxox, Jenn♥

Good news has arrived!

Guess what, guys?

I DON'T LIKE BRONSON ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HALLELUJAH, THANK YOU JESUS!!!!!
NO MORE SAPPY FUCKING BLOGS OR WALLOWING IN SELF PITY!!!!!!
YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyways...

So you might be wondering why I don't like him anymore. Well it's because he cut off all his hair and now he looks like every other white boy at school. Sorry but that's the cold hard truth.

A plus(?) for him is that he looks his age now, which is 17.

Oh, and if you were wondering this will probably be the last blog that will revolve around him. No promises though cause I have AP Psychology with him now.

xoxox, Jenn♥

Created by OnePlusYou - Free Dating Site

Lol. I guess I curse too much.
Or maybe it's that one time with the porn...nah.
XD

Things I've learned from a funeral.

I went to one of my relative's funeral yesterday. Her daughter had to take care of everything because she was an only child. Don't feel bad for me I didn't know them too well & I hadn't seen them since 2003/2004.

But these are somethings I learned:

• Exactly how much I loved my mother & that I'd be way devastated if she died.
• The person who's dead has the least of the problems.
• Just how grimy people can be. [People were making off with stuff from the mom's house the day she died. THE BODY'S NOT EVEN COLD YET!!!!]
  
• Just how rude & disrespectful people can be at the internment [People were standing around chatting & laughing & telling jokes the ENTIRE time!]
  
• You'll know who exactly are your true friends.

• Get a lawyer.

xoxox, Jenn♥

P.S. School's tomorrow, meaning expect a blog drought.

In Regards To Religion

Okay this is going to be a serious one guys.

Well I've been wanting to write a blog about this for awhile now.

So I believe in a God okay. I think I believe in Jesus too. So that would make me Christian by default right?

From that point on I think I pretty much stray from typical Christian beliefs.

I believe gay people should be allowed to be together & abortion should be handled on a case-by-case basis. Sex before marriage is okay as long as you're in a steady long-lasting love filled relationship & the time is right. Drugs & excessive alcohol is bad and all of the 10 commandments pretty much apply.

I don't think I fit the Christian mold though, I believe in evolution after all.

I don't think there's perfect right religion or that any bible or religious text is 100% accurate & precise because they were written by humans. Something(s) are bound to be changed over hundreds of years.

I don't think there's a religion that totally mirrors my beliefs. Maybe I'll just have to make my own. Maybe I'm totally wrong & I'm signing my permission slip for eternal damnation by writing this. Oh well.

Speaking of the afterlife I think there is one. I think there is a heaven & a hell and if you were a good person despite what you did/n't believe you'll get to heaven 7 if you're terrible person you'll get to make buddies with the devil in the end.

I believe what comes around goes around and if you do good you are rewarded. Everything happens for a reason & while some things are fated to be what you choose to do has its effects.

And there are times when I wish I had a definite belief in a religion complete with the biases so I could know for sure if I did this that would happen & I could have a set definition of right & wrong. Everything could be black & white with no shades of gray.

But that entire concept goes against my personality. Rofl.

I think in the end most people claim a religion simply because they're afraid to die & what comes afterward because at least with a religion whether you're good or bad you take some comfort in knowing exactly where you're going.

My problem is I don't know where I'm going and whether it exists or not...

xoxox, Jenn♥

P.S. Guys, I think I'm an agnostic thesist; Someone who believes there's a god but they're not sure that they exist.

Maximum 3 blogs per people I like

And by people I like I'm talking about in a romantic way, not a platonic way.
[Lol, I said Way]

Like HeWhoMustNotBeNamed[not Voldemort] lest I end up writing ANOTHER blog about him.
[That would make 4, not that I'm counting or anything]

God forbid, he ever read this blog he'll think I'm an obsessed stalker.
[I have no idea where he lives actually]

Oh damn I did it again!!! FUCK!
[I need to stop with all the little side commentary]

So, guys how's life?

xoxox, Jenn♥
[I'm losing my damn mind over a fricking boy...GAY!]

Is it sad that I still like him...?

Well, guys you heard me! I still like So & so! I saw him today and I still like his fuzzy cotton ball head self. Woooo! [Three cheers for false enthusiasm!]

I need to find a new object to focus my affections on.
...But he's just so damn cute. **Le sigh**

Okay, I went so open house today so my schedule looks like this:
1.Spanish 3--Martinez
2.English Honors 3--Buchholz
3.Math Analysis--Andrew
4.AP Enviromental Science--Miller
5.Band 3--Mcgallagher
6.TV Production 1--Smith
7.American History Honors--Atwood
[If you go to my school, tell me if we have the same classes here]

My 2nd period is filled with a billion people I know so it will be fun. This year is certainly looking out to be interesting.

Except for Band & Math Analysis, that's gonna suck balls.

I actually plan to stay on top over my homework this year. I know I say this every year but I'm actually going to make it true for once. After all, I do want to get into a good college.

Jeebus, I haven't posted a blog in forever. I think I've lost my touch.

xoxox, Jenn♥

P.S. School starts August 18th. Get ready guys! =]