Disappointed?

I think my mother is disappointed in me and my lack of a social life.

Because she accuses me of doing all these fanciful things that I would never do.

Because I'm boring and never do anything to get in trouble she's probably all frustrated that she'll never get to try all these neat parenting techniques for people with bad kids.

So she tries to goad me into all these stupid confrontations and then gets all mad when I defend myself and I point out why she's wrong with evidence and examples.

You know life as an adult must suck when you have to trick your kids into arguing you with in order to get some entertainment.

XoxoX, Jenn♥

Self pity isn't very pretty...

Especially in the case of having a bad family.

It's slowly becoming the norm for people to have broken/abusive/addict families. And while that's absolutely horrible and it's totally fucking up their kids, what bothers me the more is when these kids are like "Well my life is already horrible I'll just fuck up some more. It won't matter."

Like seriously, what the hell kind of thought process is this?
Just because your family is made of fail you're justified to make nothing of yourself?
Bullshit.

I don't give a damn whatever happens, you should never think like this.

In fact you should want to excel in life to prove your family and society wrong. So you can have the opportunity to be like "Bitch, look at me now! I've gone farther in life than you could ever dream of" and rub their faces in it. Or, at the very least, raise your future kids knowing you did a better job than they did.

But no, continue wallow in your self misery and go down the same path as your family. Become another statistic. Get pregnant and drop out of school while you're at it. Go ahead and sink down to their level because it's not like you were going to do anything worthwhile with your life anyways...

Are you?

XoxoX, Jenn♥

Marching Band: Best Fucking Thing Since Sliced Bread

Today, from the second I stayed after school till the second I was called to attention before I could leave I was reminded why I love marching band.

Despite the shitty practices, the BandDrama, the people who don't give a flying fuck, and a new director in the end the football games, the bus rides, and the competitions are definitely worth it.

These are things I love the most:

• The horrible loud obnoxious off-key singing done late at night
  
• The crazy gossip.
  
• Gay and band go hand in hand. [especially once in uniform]
  
• Touch a nut, not your neighbors!
• 10 Fingers!
• Inside Jokes
  
• Being surrounded by so many different personalities
• The band dance
• Mingling with the other band
• How putting on a uniform is like sprinkling pheromones on everybody
• Gay or straight you will be felt up by the same sex
  

Band is like having a other younger, more psychotic family. There are times where you want to murder each and every single person and times where you wouldn't know what you'd do without them. For every time I've ever wanted to quit band there are 5 other times that I wouldn't know what to do with myself if I did.

For you people who aren't in band, I feel sorry for you. You have no idea what you're missing out on. Maybe if you're in another club/sport/organization you might understand what I'm talking about but there's just some things that you're never experience unless you're a band geek.

xoxox, Jenn♥

BAND GEEKS FTW!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Things I've learned from a funeral.

I went to one of my relative's funeral yesterday. Her daughter had to take care of everything because she was an only child. Don't feel bad for me I didn't know them too well & I hadn't seen them since 2003/2004.

But these are somethings I learned:

• Exactly how much I loved my mother & that I'd be way devastated if she died.
• The person who's dead has the least of the problems.
• Just how grimy people can be. [People were making off with stuff from the mom's house the day she died. THE BODY'S NOT EVEN COLD YET!!!!]
  
• Just how rude & disrespectful people can be at the internment [People were standing around chatting & laughing & telling jokes the ENTIRE time!]
  
• You'll know who exactly are your true friends.

• Get a lawyer.

xoxox, Jenn♥

P.S. School's tomorrow, meaning expect a blog drought.