I'm terrified of mediocrity

I'm terrified that I'll grow up and lose all my optimism, imagination and determination to rise above all the rest.

That I'll settle for less and be okay with a mediocre life.

That I'll become a trophy housewife living in the middle of suburbia where the most exciting thing in my life is getting a stainless steel power juicer.

If the last one happens I'll probably run off with gorgeous Hispanic gardener named Raul to Argentina. My 4 kids will be devastated and will hate me for the rest of their life. I'll try to make it up to them but they'll refuse to even speak to me. Either that or I'll hang myself from the clothesline in our perfectly manicured backyard.

I refuse to be a Stepford wife.
I'd rather be alone my entire life.
I'll take the cramped apartment with 27 cats any day of the week.

I'll take my chances with living out my dreams.
At least if I fail I'll know I tried.

"So take a chance and make it big,
Cause it’s the last you’ll ever get."
--The Phrase That Pays by The Academy Is...

XoxoX, Jenn♥

Zomg!

I like boys.
I REALLY LIKE BOYS!
Like seriously, I could never be anything but straight.

I like being friends with boys.
I like talking to them.
I like when they have nice hair.
I like when they smell nice.
I like when they have some sense of style.
I like when they give me hugs.
I like when they're nice.
I like when they're funny.
I like when they're cute.
I like when they have nice bodies.
I like these V thingers that they have [sometimes].
I like when they're modest.
I like liking boys.
YAY for men!!!!!

However, I don't like penises. Or balls. Or vast amounts of body hair.
Those are gross. >_<

Wow, I sound like quite the vapid airhead here. Lol.

XoxoX, Jenn♥

Random things of note...

I am 5' 7" !!!

This really cool kid I know ISN'T moving away.

I'm taking my permit test next week.

Bad grades are bad.

I think I might have acid reflux.

I'm totally procrastinating from doing my homework.
Which is just like masturbation, it feels good while you're doing it.
Then you realize that you just fucked yourself.

I'm an undercover pervert. LOL

I have the magical ability to sleep 17 hours straight which I demonstrated on Friday.

If I don't get my grades up in 2 classes I'll be SOL for Bake Sale.

MMORPGs are the fucking devil.

This whole "Never-Had-A-Boyfriend" thing is more common that I thought.

I would have died, literally, had I gave blood on Friday.

I need to write my essay on my fear of zombies like right now.

XoxoX, Jenn♥

If music was my boyfriend...

Let's take this back to elementary school & just pretend for a moment.
Let's pretend music is a person; a guy around my age to be exact.
Let's say he's my boyfriend for the purpose of this blog.

So if music was my boyfriend:
-He'd always seem to know the right thing to say.
-He'd be moody from time to time.
-He'd have all the answers I'd ever need.
-He'd be the only one I'd want to hear after crappy day.
-He would understand me more than I do.
-He'd probably be a little crazy but it would suite him.
-He would be loved by everyone.
-He would have a twin brother named Lyrics.
-We'd be together nearly 24/7.

Hmm, that was oddly poetic of me.

xoxox, Jenn♥

Things I've realized about myself.

-I hate apologizing; I rarely ever do it.
-I hate admitting that I'm wrong.
-I'm stubborn.
-I keep my emotions hidden well.
-There's a 99.9% chance that I won't have sex in high school BY CHOICE.
-I hate disrespectful, rude, ignorant people.
-I hate when things aren't fair.
-I think seniority & elitism is bullshit.
-I know A LOT more about certain people then they would realize or want me to know.
-I have a really good family.
-I have absolutely no idea I want to come of my impending future. I just want to be happy.
-Apparently I'm really funny.
-Also, apparently I make lots of entertaining facial expressions.
-I've learned to not make plans based on people for my future.
-I may seem to be overly realistic or pessimistic but deep down I'm quite the optimist.
-I like IMing/texting/messaging/etc. because I can organize my thoughts better.
-But with talking I don't seem to able to always get my point across.
-I love to read.
-I'm a dork & I'll never be cool but I'm okay with that.
-I'm vain about 2 things only: this blog & my taste in music.
-I LOVE music. <--- This sentence can never fully describe how I feel about music.
-Sometimes, I truly believe I'm going to be that old lady with 27 cats.
-I'll kill myself when I hit 66.
-I refuse to get old, rickety, incontinent. Fuck old age.
-I reeeaaalllly want to learn how to play bass.

xoxox, Jenn♥

Today's my birthday.

I'm 16 now. I don't really feel any older.

I'm over you. I don't know why I made such a big deal. >_>

I'm sick like a dog. I feel like death. D=<

I have no idea why I'm even posting a blog.

Fucking people and their pull down shower heads. XDDDD

xoxox, Jenn♥

P.S. Was it just me or was Tyler looking dead fucking sexy last Saturday?
But let me keep the record straight, I DO NOT LIKE HIM!!! That was totally a one time thing.
Unless he starts coming to school like that everyday...Lmao.

Epic failure muffins.

Because I fail at being discreet.
Hence the deletion of 2 very insecure blogs.
Nobody needs to read all that jazz.

FailMuffins for everyone.

Mmmm, delicious.