Disappointed?

I think my mother is disappointed in me and my lack of a social life.

Because she accuses me of doing all these fanciful things that I would never do.

Because I'm boring and never do anything to get in trouble she's probably all frustrated that she'll never get to try all these neat parenting techniques for people with bad kids.

So she tries to goad me into all these stupid confrontations and then gets all mad when I defend myself and I point out why she's wrong with evidence and examples.

You know life as an adult must suck when you have to trick your kids into arguing you with in order to get some entertainment.

XoxoX, Jenn♥

Coward

I just had a realized I'm kind of a punk.

Because I take the path of least resistance so when things turn to shit I can just claim that I wasn't really trying, instead of giving 100% and having my efforts thrown back in my face.

And then I wonder why nothing particularly exciting ever comes my way.

Nobody can ever frustrate me like I can.

XoxoX, Jenn♥

How about that new school year?

This year I feel overwhelmed with a sense of urgency & hope.

Urgency because I feel like I have to cram every little bit of fun into this year.
And hope because I think I'm finally on the path of becoming the person I want to be. :)

Knowing who you want to be & how to get there is really nice.

Anyways I just felt like writing a little statement about my current state of affairs.
Life is excellent. 8]

XoxoX, Jenn♥

What's with his homies dissing my girl?

10 points if you know what song that's from!

Anyways I feel like writing another random blog.

So this coming school year feels like it's going to be really good and it should be because it's my senior year. I don't want no stupid friend drama or stupid boy drama. I just wanna get good grades, have some fun, and create memories to tell to my children one day.

Basically, fuck all you stupid people who try to ruin other people's happiness. I simply don't have time for your bullshit this year.

And I'm going to stop holding back on my personality because I can't please everyone & a little rejection isn't going to kill me. In fact, it'll only make me a stronger person.

Another thing I want to do by the end of this year is to tie up all my loose ends before I leave PSL behind. Throughout this year I'll probably confront several people random things I have to say them. I don't want to have any what if's by the time I graduate.

So this year is gonna be all about taking some risks & making mistakes because it's better to fuck up now while I still have a safety net to catch me when I fall.

XoxoX, Jenn♥

I have a car wash in 7 hours

& I have no idea why I'm still up.

I turn into something of an insomniac during the summer.
So it's a gonna be a bitch to wake up at 7 am next Tuesday for band camp.

And I still can't believe I'm finally a senior.
I feel as if I should have another year to get my act together.
It's really weird to go from the bottom of the food chain to the top in just 4 years only to do it over again.

The idea of my childhood ending is stifling me again.

xoxox, Jenn♥

P.S. I was rereading some of my old blogs and I don't think I sound like myself.
I sound more mature & more well put together.
The transition from in person to text is really kind to me.

=^-_-^= it's a cat

Guys are fricking weird; I doubt I'll ever totally comprehend them.

I bet guys feel the same way about girls.

I'm just one of vast majority of teenagers who think they're totally unique and the only one to experience what their going through. However the truth of the matter is I'm not as misunderstood as I'd like to imagine.

95% of the stuff that happens in your life is consequence of your actions. The other 5% is stuff that drives your actions. You make your own destiny.

I'm going to be "ready" for the real world this time next year according to a pretty sheet of paper. I have no idea of what I want and whether or not I'm capable of sustaining myself.

Sometimes I don't realize I still have some last vestiges of seeing the world through rose tinted glasses so when they're shattered I'm totally discouraged.

But I also need to realize without these little bits of hope I'd become a miserable old curmudgeon. <---- EPIC WORD!!!

That's it for now.

xoxox, Jenn♥

Jennifer's very own BUCKET LIST!

In light of recent events I've realized life is very fleeting and anyone can go at anytime. And while this is very terrifying to think about this is all the more reason to live life to the fullest extent and not sit on your ass and bitch about how life sucks.

So here's my list:

• See one of my favorite bands in concert
• Do marching band in college
• Travel the US
• Become a band director
• Learn how to shoot a gun/cross bow
• Do a zombie walk
• Partake in the Running of the Bulls
• Make a YouTube video
• Get into my first choice college
• Fall in love
• Speak another language fluently
• Have a penpal
• Become an environmental scientist
• See a show on Broadway
• Be an extra in a movie
• Invent something
• Learn how to knit/crochet
• Cook/bake something from scratch out of a cookbook
• Learn to play bass guitar
• Become a psychologist
• Have someone I know (or used to know) become famous
• Meet one of my favorite bands
• Have 5000 songs on my iPod
• Go camping
• Have a road trip
• Learn computer programming
• Learn to play the drums
• Play Guitar Hero on expert
• Sneak on to the roof of a public building
• Travel the world
• Go to Warped Tour
• Join a band
• Partake in the Tomatina
• Be in a orchestra for a movie score
• Write a book
• Go to space (Or float like I'm in space)
  

That's in for now. I'll add more later.
And eventually cross some off.

Stolen from Alyssa.
RIP Johny Mejias

XoxoX, Jenn♥